When I am afraid. I find myself afraid in many ways. I’m afraid to fail in writing the book I’m supposed to be writing. I’m afraid of looking dumb. What do I do when I’m afraid? Sometimes I distract myself. Sometimes I procrastinate. Sometimes I hide. Does it work? Not really. The fear doesn’t go away. What does David do?
I put my trust in You. Instead of hiding, escaping, or numbing, David puts his trust in God. If I learn to look past my distorted image of God that looks suspiciously like certain authorities figures in my life on a bad day, I can see that He really is faithful—more faithful than I can imagine. If I think about how easy it often is to trust Gem when I see her honesty, sincerity and lack of guile, how much more should I be able to trust God who will never let me down, neither willfully or ‘accidentally’? What helps me to rest trustingly in God more?
In God, whose word I praise—God always says what He means and always means what He says. He doesn’t waste words. I praise His word because it is true, right, good, merciful, kind and words like this could just keep piling up. When I feel it hard to connect with something in scripture because it doesn’t feel real to me, that says very little about the quality of what God says. It probably says much more about my own ability to receive or perceive the goodness of what He says. Father, Your word is most worthy of praise.
In God I trust and am not afraid. I want to learn how to do what David does here. I want to so trust in You, Lord, that I am no longer paralyzed, immobilized or hindered by fears. There is a kind of inward hurry that prevents me from sinking down and soaking in the peace and rest of God into my heart and mind. God, You really are completely trustworthy. You are not holding the failures and transgressions of my past against me. You do not desire to keep a record of wrongs between You and me. You desired to remove them, and so You sent Your Son to make this justly possible. You did it the right way. You didn’t pretend there was nothing wrong with me. You addressed the wrong in me righteously and rightly.
What can mere mortals do to me? I hear in this that the harm fear causes me to imagine is always greater than reality. What harm is actually going to happen? I remember someone once saying that fear is actually a doorway into a deeper experience of God and His love. It just doesn’t look like that from this side!
- What are some of the fears you are currently facing?
- What is the harm you imagine?
- How might God be inviting you to step right through that fear into a place of deeper surrender and communion with Him?